A human being is a part of the whole called by us "universe", a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.
--Albert Einstein
How does a person break free from this prison. I have tried & tried, to keep repeating the same cycle it seems, I have been unable to become this person, Im a life long TBI/ABI survivor. I first had learned of brain injury in 2001 after an emergency brain surgery, where I also learned I had been born with what is called cavernous malformations. Its believed by my dr's that this was a hereditary condition for me because of my brain & head to have multiples of these cavernoma's. Prior to this brain surgery I experienced many head injuries & concussions up to this point in my life, a couple of them to be severe & mild concussions with loss of conciousnesS, I don't really like to open up about this but I come from a family of addicts, biological parents both being addicts themselve's,married young & divorced young as well. I had great deals of trouble's that started at an early age for myself. I experimented drugs & alcohol early in my teens, this continued on for many years, upon my brain surgery at 23, I had scar tissue on the area of my brain, which was the brain stem. The surgeon believed that this area of my brain to have had previous rupture or ruptures prior to the specific one at surgery. Surgery was a success, with therapy of various types, my stay in the hospital was not extensive 2-3 weeks I remember correctly. However, I did go through long term occupational/physical therapy that continued for a long period. Prior to therapy I did find myself in several other trauma related events.My most recent two head & brain injuries have occurred in the past 3yrs. I do continue to suffer from symptons from my injuries, depression/anxiety being the most challenging problems. If I could get some help or reference to help it would be much appreciated. Thank you
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How does a person break free from this prison. I have tried & tried, to keep repeating the same cycle it seems, I have been unable to become this person, Im a life long TBI/ABI survivor. I first had learned of brain injury in 2001 after an emergency brain surgery, where I also learned I had been born with what is called cavernous malformations. Its believed by my dr's that this was a hereditary condition for me because of my brain & head to have multiples of these cavernoma's. Prior to this brain surgery I experienced many head injuries & concussions up to this point in my life, a couple of them to be severe & mild concussions with loss of conciousnesS, I don't really like to open up about this but I come from a family of addicts, biological parents both being addicts themselve's,married young & divorced young as well. I had great deals of trouble's that started at an early age for myself. I experimented drugs & alcohol early in my teens, this continued on for many years, upon my brain surgery at 23, I had scar tissue on the area of my brain, which was the brain stem. The surgeon believed that this area of my brain to have had previous rupture or ruptures prior to the specific one at surgery. Surgery was a success, with therapy of various types, my stay in the hospital was not extensive 2-3 weeks I remember correctly. However, I did go through long term occupational/physical therapy that continued for a long period. Prior to therapy I did find myself in several other trauma related events.My most recent two head & brain injuries have occurred in the past 3yrs. I do continue to suffer from symptons from my injuries, depression/anxiety being the most challenging problems. If I could get some help or reference to help it would be much appreciated. Thank you
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